My Humanness

"Adolescense has nothing to do with becoming an adult...adolescense is a moment of becoming human." Sometimes I don't realize that I just turned 18, and that I have room to have untainted fun. Even as I say this, I doubt its validity within my own reasoning. I don't truly believe it. I want to, but I simply don't. Am I allowed to do stupid things without actually being named an idiot and failure? I've always been uncomfortable with stillness. I' ve never been satisfied with my standing. I have had moments of happiness and pride, but I always want more. I feel that I should be more.