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I can't believe I have slacked off this much on posting since school started. I am ashamed. The semester has gone well though. Busy is always a good thing.
The semester is almost done with. School is not a breeze for me. I used to think it was, but I wasn't really in school. College, where You teach yourself the skills you will need for your future profession, is not easy at all. Here, I am trying to complete myself by coating my mind with these things I read, these diagrams I study, these concepts I materialize. Some coats peel off and disintegrate; others just lose their vibrancy. There are the ideas that solidify, but they are numbered and few. I don't understand why I feel different than the individuals that surround me here, but each time I muster up the competitiveness that everyone seems to have mastered, I get shot down as if I am forever condemned to being one step behind.